April 10, 2009 9:59 PM Dubai, United Arab Emirates There has never been a day since I got here that I have never wished of being home. I guess the aloneness that I have always wanted hasn’t really been working out for me. Homesickness, whether I accept it or not, has crept up on me and the most important question that I have asked myself for at least a million times hasn’t been answered yet. I am still wondering why God has allowed me to be here. Being here was my choice and I have to accept the consequences of my decision. But unlike most people have accused me of, I am not here for the money. NO, DEFINITELY NOT! I decided to come here to be alone… to run away… to move on… and to forget the memories that have haunted me for so long. I came here to forgive and be forgiven with the hope that when I go back everything would be alright; that I would be able to completely take away all the hatred that I have been hiding all these years; that I would be able to accept things as they ar...

A hate mail has been circulating in the web right now against Filipinos and Philippines as a country. It is clearly a product of ignorance and I am greatly outraged and that the same time saddened by the contents of the open letter. The letter was written by a man named Art Bell who is reportedly a radio commentator. I don't know where he based his opinions but they are really ridiculous! His letter entitled "Filipinos Make Me Puke" is in blue below. A response to the letter by a fellow Filipino is in green while my own response is in red. Filipinos Make Me Puke By: Art Bell As we've all come to notice, in the past few decades, Filipinos have begun to infest the United States like some sort of disease. Their extensive involvement in the U.S. Armed Forces is proof of the trashy kind of qualities all Filipinos tend to exhibit on a regular basis. You can see this clearly by studying the attitudes and cultural Icons of most Filipino Americans. Origins of Pinoys/Pinays...

Tony Almeida's new look as a terrorist in season 7 “What happened to Tony Almeida???!” I posted that same message on my YM status about a week ago, describing the wonder that was lurking in my mind about what truly happened to Tony Almeida oblivious of the fact that aside from 24 addicts like me, no one really knows who Tony Almeida is. For that whole day, a number of my YM friends who saw that status message of mine asked mo who Tony Almeida was. I gave them the same answer. Tony Almeida is actually one of 24’s recurring characters. And guess what, they also gave me the same reply. They all thought that Tony Almeida was some filthy Filipino politician who is involved with corruption issues. I was obviously amused by their reactions but at the same time worried about how Tony Almeida’s character would end in 24. The night before, I watched the first two episodes of 24’s newest season. And for those who haven’t watched the new episodes yet, you better not read this post for be...

This maybe kind of late but I am posting it anyway. While many magazines and websites have been flooded with countdowns of what and who were the hottest of 2008, I am going to reminisce the highlights of one of my most memorable years yet… walking down on memory lane… January I was a little more than a month old in my job then but I was so unhappy. I went to work everyday but I hardly even did anything and it made me extremely uncomfortable. My not so friendly officemates were not helpful and what I wanted to do was just to get out of that place as soon as possible. I found an opportunity to find another job one day. Under the heat of the sunlight, I walked through the roads of Lapulapu City and re-entered the world which I had so dreaded to come back to. I applied as a Call Center Agent. I was hired on that same day and found myself resigning from the job that I was then holding. February Getting hired was just the first step of my new life. I was trained for about two weeks a...

Two of my sisters are in Dubai, United Arab Emirates. One of them has been working in the city for almost three years and the other one for almost two. They earned relatively well which made us able to live quite comfortably. A few months ago, my eldest sister was also dreaming about going to that great Muslim city and tried to persuade me of going there too. When she asked me the ultimate question, I was a little surprised with my response. It was a big NO. "Why?" she asked. For one, I never really dreamed of leaving my comfort zone for anything, especially for money. There was nothing I wanted but to be able to live as comfortably as I can and at the same time be contented with what I have. But that reason was actually not the one that I told my sister. "The Lord's second coming is near," I told her, "and when that time comes, I don't want myself to be surrounded by Arabs." It surprised me and my sister as well. But it was a very truthful an...

I have just finished packing my things and I am almost ready to fly. I have almost done doing everything in my to-do list and right now all I want to do is just to relax. I am going to make the biggest decision of my life and tomorrow is my twilight. Coincidentally, tomorrow is the Philippine premier of the movie Twilight of which I am a huge fan. Also, tomorrow would be my last day here in the Philippines. Tomorrow, I would be experiencing two very different twilights in my life. I couldn't really say that going to Dubai is everything that I have always wanted. I told myself before that if I would be able to have a job that could give me the necessary comfort, not the luxurious comfort, I would never ever desire of going abroad. I was able to find such a job. But why am I doing this now? When I was a young child, all I wanted to do was to run away. I always wanted to be alone and I didn't want anybody to interfere with my decisions for my life. I wanted to tend for mysel...

Would Edward be able to resist killing Bella? Would Bella be willing to give up her life for Edward? I am more than halfway through the last book of the Twilight Series -- Breaking Dawn. I am expecting to finish it tonight and tomorrow would be a time to hear Edward Cullen's story behind the very bizarre and reason-defying love story of him and Bella Swan. This story has just captivated my mind. Every single thing I think of these days are about Edward and Bella.. and sometimes the funny imprinting of Bella's werewolf best friend Jacob to her and Edward's only half-vampire and half-human daughter Renesmee. Just like a normal addict (as if being an addict is normal), I haven't stopped just by reading the books. Researches here and there have kept me preoccupied in the last few days. Videos, music, write-ups, pictures.. I have searched the net endlessly as I am waiting for the climax of this addiction. I have watched all of the movies' trailers and that made me...